The Life Side

Life has a way of introducing pain into our minuscule relationships as sort of a tester to ensure we're well equipped to handle that major relationship we're promised. We have this tendency to complicate simple situations for the need of definition, when all we need is a free flowing, whimsical, practice engagement. It has been my experience that, the more loose the relationship the easier it is to manage. Recognize that each relationship has it's purpose, and not all are meant to be meaningful, but all are meant to teach. I'll leave you with a poem I wrote about complicating life, enjoy.

I would like to just sit here and think of that which is nothing to think about.
Let my mind wander into that which is effortless, a place only described as space and time
where it is simple and mistakes can be mended, sound judgement is carried out
I don't want to think about the issues of today
I don't want to worry about tomorrow
I don't want to concern myself with that which does not merit concern

My mind remains consumed with the ill-advised decisions I cannot fix
I want to run, run and continue running far away and never stop until...
I am not satisfied with my life, maybe it is my spiritual abandonment that has me sick
I starve from true affection, not that which is fake in the sense of obsession
I yearn for authenticity and what is real to me
A companion that has the ability to comprehend the severity of life issues and the ability to cope with them

My thinking is clouded by physical pleasure, which has thrust me deep into an abysmal like state
It is infinite, will I ever make a good decision
Man I hate this, I hate it, I hate it for what it has made me become
I contemplate the alternatives and what would that be
The absence of them I believe
The implementation of the absence of me
Withdrawal
Eliminate
I am dead to it
I want freedom

What did I really do besides cause myself pain and that to others
It seems that is all I know
I hate it, I hate it...and now I must pay